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Know me, dont judge me.
I'm just a girl who lives in this ordinary world. ♥

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♥ Thursday, June 25 ♥
The greatest flaw that i possess is that i give up too easily. Once i'm faced with an obstacle and somehow i cant quite solve it, i just want to give it up. And i cant help but to think that i'm to be blamed.
I know i've not faced with this particular problem before, thus i'm unable to handle it.
I dont like what i'm feeling right now and i dont know what to do about it.
I just want things to be perfect, but life isnt perfect.




left her thoughts ♥ 1:23:00 AM

♥ Friday, June 12 ♥
i know what i need right now. i feel like getting drunk and cry my eyes out and not bother about anyhing.

i think i just need to break down one last time and move on with life.




left her thoughts ♥ 9:26:00 PM

♥ ♥
Char introduced this song to me and she said this song would probably be one that i could relate to.
After hearing it, how true it is.

Hush Hush

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known
I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spend
I never ask for help
I take care of myself
I don’t why you think you got a hold on me

And it’s a little late for conversations
There isn’t anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because…

I don’t want to stay another minute
I don’t want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because…
I don’t want to, do this any longer
I don’t want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
I’ve already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday
I’m sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And it’s a little late for explanations
There isn’t anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say baby…

I don’t want to stay another minute
I don’t want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because…
I don’t want to do this any longer
I don’t want you there’s nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
I’ve already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying

No more pain
No more hurt
No more trying

I don’t want to stay another minute
I don’t want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because…
I don’t want to, do this any longer
I don’t want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
I’ve already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush




left her thoughts ♥ 9:11:00 PM

♥ Tuesday, June 9 ♥
Think i'm feeling very stressed up about everything.
Dad's condition isnt very good. Didnt tell anyone much cos i dont wanna talk about it.I guess i'm trying very hard to avoid it,been telling myself to live life as it is. I dont want to face the truth of losing my dad.
Does anyone understand it? No, i dont even think my boyfriend does.I dont even tell him that i've been moody and down because of what's going on at home. Mum's bloody stressed up, screams at everyone.Dad gets upset, i get irritated. No one's happy. But does anyone know that we're supposed to make Dad HAPPY? everyone's drowning in their own troubles that no one tries to make my dad happy.
Everyday, my dad looks super upset,worrying about my mum and her temper, worrying about his condition.

And honestly, I want to turn to him but find myself a burden and he's always busy with his things. I think i'm bottling everything up right now.
I promised to go back to help out for the up comin dragon boat race, HOPING to spend abit more time with my boyfriend, but i end up getting so stressed cos on the other hand, my mum's scolding me for not taking care of the family, and when i stay home, my dad nags at me for not exercising.i cant spend time with my boyfriend, and it doesnt help that he's always tired from training,and he has to be home early cos there's training the next day.


i somehow hate it. i really do. and i'm trying my very best.

Does anyone know how sickening this feeling is? it fucking sucks.

It sucks to be me, really.




left her thoughts ♥ 4:59:00 PM

♥ Monday, June 8 ♥
everytime i have PMS, i feel like i'm suffering from a mid-life crisis.
dont know why though.




left her thoughts ♥ 11:22:00 PM